JANUARY!

how ironic that my two posts of this 'year' (the year being september-june, not the calendar year) would be of two months that represent starting anew. my life has been relatively hard recently, especially because i've been trying to sort out what i want vs. what i believe i ought to want. i think this is a question most have to deal with and it's not so great a place to be right now. fortunately i had a lovely sunday, although aren't sundays always lovely, and i'm hoping that this week brings with it joy and loveliness. because who doesn't love a little loveliness?! i don't have much to say except for i hope you all have been having a great 2010 so far. i know i...have?

ps: wish me luck on my quest of having a better tomorrow.

SEPTEMBER!

oh do i love september. its a time to start anew- the whole year is laid out before you. and by starting anew, i am announcing something very sad, if only to me: the end of this blog. i do sometimes feel like michael, a.k.a. steve carrell, from the office when writing on here...because i address people as if THEY actually care, just as he does with his dunder-mifflin associates. okay so maybe you dont care. i am fully aware you dont care. but maybe a little part inside of me doesnt really care that you dont care. i dont mean that in a "take that!" way, like two little kindergartener's on the playground. i just mean that i want to get my thoughts down on paper- or plastic, or computer, or gigabyte or WHATEVER- and i dont really need people commenting on them. but its nice to be able to read them. to say "i did that." and to look back on it. so its like a diary. "Dear diary." youre not actually addressing anyone. and im not addressing anyone here. i know that. but that was never my intention.

also, this signifies a different stage in my life. it will ALWAYS be that stage, which is nice. unless the internet goes downhill and my blog gets deleted- not so nice. oh well! either way. its still here. i just probably wont be posting. thanks.

--there is no beginning/ there'll be no end- the rest doesnt really apply. THE TROGGS.

keep feeling fascination

so just watched a really good movie: the heathers. although the whole teen-killing issue was a little morbid for me, i overall really enjoyed it;). i just realized i left out a lot of key pronouns: for example "so just watched.." should be, at least, "so I just watched" and i almost left out the i in "i overall really enjoyed it" which is also wrong because it should be: overall, i really enjoyed it. well ive got dinner waiting for me: meatloaf and scalloped potatoes! yummy! leftovers are the best;).

you made me leave my happy home

keep feeling fascination

take on me

<3 favorite song qujotes
haha goodbye my friend you hvae been the one you have been the one for me =)

There's only one thing...

2 do, 3 words, 4 you: I love you. (I love you)

Somehow I think that video and song are the CUTEST VIDEO AND SONG EVER! Of course I do love that kind of thing ;)... (cheesiness and all that!) My life has taken an unexpected turn for the better today, hint the unexpected. I don't really feel like getting into details but it's exciting. That's all I can say on the issue.

I thought I had all this existentialist stuff to talk about but I don't. Oh yes, I remember the topic I considered blogging about: Socrates's "An unexamined life is not worth living."

Socrates- can we agree to disagree? (I know I'm talking to a dead guy- but, whatever, I'm cool with that.) An unexamined life is worth living for. It's actually very true. When you examine your life, you're not actually living it. Although I agree that is not fun to walk around like mindless rats (1984 anyone?) it's still rather annoying to constantly analyze what happens around you. I would know. It's healthy to let loose once in a while and to reach a happy medium between the two. Don't be hyperaware, be aware.

So...once again, sing-along time:

THERE'S ONLY 1 THING 2 DO 3 WORDS 4 YOU: I LOVE YOU. (i LOVE YOU)
THERE'S ONLY 1 WAY 2 SAY THOSE 3 WORDS THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO: I LOVE YOU. (i LOVE YOU)

<3!

WILY...

Today I'd love to say I feel clever, witty, and full of life. In that case- I'd be lying: I feel the exact opposite :). Tonight is Being Erica and normally I'd be psyched about watching that...except that I'm not. I just finalized all my plans and I'm kinda pissed about that- ahh urgh. This is basically a list of all my problems. Having fun?

A-ha! I know you are!

We're talking away
I don't know what
I'm to say I'll say it anyway
Today's another day to find you
Shying away
I'll be coming for your love, OK?

Take on me, take me on
I'll be gone
In a day or two

So needless to say
I'm odds and ends
But that's me stumbling away
Slowly learning that life is OK.
Say after me
It's no better to be safe than sorry

Take on me, take me on
I'll be gone
In a day or two

Oh the things that you say
Is it life or
Just a play my worries away
You're all the things I've got to
remember
You're shying away
I'll be coming for you anyway

Take on me, take me on
I'll be gone
In a day or two


as will i... as will i...

Things I love!

AH-la-la: if anyone has actually READ my blog before, pretty much everyone knows i'm negative. not in the sense that if i was going on a plane i would automatically assume i was going to crash. i guess that's paranoid, but you get the idea. in general i think i'm pretty optimistic. but today it was rainy and gross and cold and my shorts were falling down and i was just like: WTF? I HATE LIFE! but it wasnt really life it was just like ."i hate the rain" oh i <3 this "i hate it" "i hate my shorts" "i hate my shirt" "i hate my [insert name]" so i wanted to make a list of things i love. because there are lots of them. so here they are:

things I love:
-the best years (my favoritest TV show ever)
-being erica (my 2nd favoritest TV show ever: actualy they're equal)
-my friends (all of them!)
-RUSTY! (get me some coca-cola)
-heart to hearts
-diet coke (i really miss it...)
-EASTER
-presents (sorry but its true!)
-shopping
-buying (haha, its different then shopping actually!)
-writing (OMG! THIS IS MY ADDICTION!)
-reading (1984 by george orwell right now, thanks for asking!)
-my church
etc.
everything i love would be too much to list!
-oh and MY FAVORITEST FRIEND EVER YOU KINOLW WHO YOU ARE YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME YOU CHEER ME UP ON A RAINY DAY ;) YOU MAKE MY LIFE AMAZING. AND ILOVE IT WHEN YOU SING ALWAYS! ily ;) but dont eat my babies..please..

xoxo E
ps: does eating eggs make you a baby-killer?

APRIL SHOWERS

apparently they bring may flowers.

who ever really knows anymore? hoy es el trece del abril, that's for sure. im feeling sort of obligated to do something (that is 20 minutes on the exercise bike plus some ab exercises) but all i really want to do is have my dinner, watch GREEK (and bits of gossip girl), watch ROOMMATES (i've never watched it before and it looks good) or ONE TREE HILL, then watch SOPHIE (i've watched one episode: stupid but worth it!). i didn't really even want to post o n my blog either but i felt like i had to as well. it's been so long but, if this is possible, i haven't really had anything to say. maybe if i felt like someone actually CARED about my posts, i would care as well. but, in the meantime, here is some consolation.

when i was like 5, i made this blog on blogspot.com. it was all the rage in pre-K, didn't you hear? haha, all i remember is everyone had freewebs.com and once again i was left alone on blogger. but i thought it was the shiznitch. It has to do with animals. Shit! I forgot the link. Oh well.

I'll find it later. For now, I'm out. Off to do my abs-olutely amazing abcersises. (Way to play on the word ABS alot!)

xxx, E

also, a fun pun to leave you with: (this is not homophobic in any way) what do they say at the GLAAD awards? "i'm so GLAAD to be here." ahaha laugh its stupid but so stupid its funny. as all my jokes usually are. ah- self-deprecation starts at a young age.