AHH. life.

so ive made a new decision: to always strive to be happy. look, i'm sick of moping around. being "depressed" actually makes you mor depressed and makes everything around you look all depressing too. i've made half-hearted attempts to do this but, honestly, it hasn't really been good. im going to start tomorrow by being the happy person i know i can be! look, i've been thru this stage once before and it lasted a week and then wore off once i got into being happy again :).

anyways, i love my friends, especially one in particular who always makes me feel loved. i love you forever and ever and i don't know what i'd do without you. you know who you are. god, supportive people are the people to keep around. people who make you feel like crap should NOT be kept around. i mean, if you tell them they treat you badly and they stop then you're fine. i hate it when people like: "oh, your friends do that? oh, they're bad. just ditch them right now." im like: THEY'RE MY FRIENDS. i'm sure your friends screw up too. i don't just ditch them everytime they make one wrong move. so...this whole thing started about depression but i feel like (another expression i hate but here goes): live each day to the fullest bcuz it might be your last.

one i prefer much more:
laugh the loudest, love the hardest, live the fullest.