ohhhh life :(

remember how i was depressed last week? or the week before. i think it was the week before. yeah, the week before. well this week im more in the gotta-plan mood! before i was in the "sulk and hope something will happen" mood. but now not so much.

get ready for major planning, dilaters, because some recent news has got me interested in someone, perhaps the love of my life. who will be the love of my life. and i dont mind going after it (or him). so go for it! (i know-- you hate that phrase, oh well.) sorry my blog don't make much sense to y'all who are not in the know. (and sorry that sentence was so...ugh!)

my only question is this: what if 'GOING FOR IT' so to speak means RAINING ON SOMEONE ELSE'S PARADE? does doing something good for you (and not intentionally hurting someone's feelings) but hurting someone's feelings make it wrong? cuz there's something i need- something i want so bad - but i don't want to get it at someone else's expense you know. like an internship for example- its like winning that, you want it but you don't want to beat out people who ARE YOUR FRIENDS for it! life is hard that way. competition is hard that way. i was never one who liked competition, unless it was with ppl i hate. acrtally i <3 competition what am i saying?
toodaloo xxx E
ps: my expression for the day is: "im like a turtle." sometimes i feel like i go inside myself to search for who i am. im like a turtle going into my shell that way :D so if youre like a turtle, or just like turtles POST!


pps: anyone heard the song 20 dollar nose bleed by fall out boy ft. brendon urie? LOVE IT!


have you ever wanted to disappear and join a monastery? go out and preach young addicts straight. who will i be when i wkae up next to a stranger on a passenger plane? passenger plane. permanent jet lag please take me back please take me back ohoh im a stray dog sick plz let me in the mat keeps tripping singing vows before we exchagne smoke rings give me a pen call me mr. benzadrine but dont let the doctor in i wanna blow off steam and call me mr. benzadrine but dont let the doctor dont let the doctor in. its like 14 carats with no clarity. when i look at the man who would be king the man who would be king. goes to the desert the same war his dad rehearsed came back with flags on coffins and said we won, oh, we won.permanent jet lag please take me back please take me back OHoohooh im a stray dog sick plz let me in the mat keeps tripping singingn vows before we exchange smoke rings give me a pen call me mr. benzadrine but dont let the doctor in i wanna blow off steam and call me mr. benzadrine but dont let the doctor dont let the doctor in <3 give it a listen! (for cereal) but not part of the song


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